You gotta have faith.

I've never had any spiritual faith. Don't tell the Boy Scouts. They might want all their Merit Badges back... I'm not really agnostic or atheist either. I'm removed from the whole thing. I don't accept or deny the existence of a god or gods. It just isn't something that has ever interested me. Which leads me to faith... Do I have faith and if I do, can I get federal funding?

All jokes aside, things have happened that have put me in a position where is seems like I have to have...well, faith that things will turn out okay. For some reason, and I don't know why, but I associated faith with religion. Being one of those silly people who believe that thoughts and emotions are indeed just chemical reactions, faith just seems to be something that I shouldn't want or need. Maybe all I need is hope.

Why do you need faith or hope if you think that everything is just a chemical reaction and there is no soul and you don't have to pray to some deity? I don't know. Maybe I'm just trying to take the easy way out. Faith will get my sorry ass chemical reactions through this tough time and then I can toss it aside when things are going good again.

Isn't that what most people do with religion anyways? How many people really pray when things are okay? I don't know, but I do know that it's a hell of a lot less then when things are bad.

Sometimes I also wonder if I suffer from blind faith. Maybe it's blind devotion and not faith. I don't know what the difference is really. But I might have one of them. But then I question if it's really "blind" when I know for a fact that I have limits to how far I would go to stay "on track" with my faith/devotion/what have you.

As long as I don't have to hear some lame pep rally speech tomorrow I think I'll be fine. As for everyone else...you gotta have faith.